Anxious about the future

I can't believe it's September already. This year has been going by so fast. Our summer was okay, nothing exciting really happened... We were planning on a camping trip to Island Park and Yellowstone in August for our annual vacation, but it didn't work out because my mom needed us to help take my brother, Justin, up to school. Which wasn't a problem, I am so excited for him and I want to make sure he is successful in school. He is going to University of Idaho and, if you have never taken a trip up there, the drive is pretty terrible. It takes about the same time to get there like it would to Las Vegas but because there is nothing but road and mountains, it made it feel like it was so much longer. We got off to a rocky start too. Phil got a speeding ticket and my mom needed to go to the restroom every half hour, so we had to stop way too much.

But, we finally made it up there safely and we were blown away by the campus. It is so huge and pretty up there. It's also right on the border of Idaho and Washington, if you didn't know, so we went shopping in Pullman, Washington just to say we've been to the state. :) My brother is rooming with his best friend growing up so even though we miss him, we know he is in safe hands. Plus, we make sure to skype every Sunday.

We finally had a chance to go see Wicked and it was as amazing as everyone says. We had such a good time! If you haven't seen it, really, you need to put it on your bucket list!

Phil started school a couple weeks ago, as well. He is taking 17 credits, so he has a LOT on his plate. So far, though, it sounds like it's going really well, so hopefully that stays that way. I can't believe he will finally graduate next December. It cannot come fast enough! To try to make things easier on him (he has to commute down to Poky four days a week), I am trying to find a job in Pocatello so we can move next to campus. I had a really good interview with a bank down there, so I am hoping it will work out. I should hear back from them this weekend or the beginning of next week.

I really am very anxious about our future right now. No matter where we end up, I am just so ready to be done with Best Buy. While I have loved working there, it's been a struggle supporting Phil and I with the low income I earn there. I did end up getting the freelance writing job with Best Buy Mobile Magazine and I LOVE writing for them, but I only get to write once a month and that's just not enough for me! (BTW, if you haven't had a chance to read my articles, please visit www.bestbuymobile.com.) Especially with Phil taking so many credits, I don't want him to be working - I just want him to focus on school. I've applied to jobs like crazy and I have gotten a few interviews, but nothing has been finalized yet.

I'm also getting stressed about our future family. We have been trying to get pregnant for five months now and no news yet. I know that it can take up a year for a couple to get pregnant, but it's frustrating to me, especially when I see everyone else's announcements on Facebook. I am just so ready to take the next step in life and it seems so easy for everyone else. I know, I need to be more patient and there is so much I can do to improve myself before having a baby. And, we do have plenty of time to have a family - I just barely turned 24 (though I do feel ancient all of a sudden, haha) But, it's still hard....

So many things can happen within the next couple of months, it's scary because I feel like I don't have control of anything. But, I'm ready for change, that's for sure, even if it is scary. Until then, whatever may happen, I will just focus on getting Phil through school and put my faith in the Lord. I just hope everything will work out in the end!